Schedule...What Schedule?!?

So, as you all know my online teaching job ended on Monday. I have to say it has been a relief not to have work waiting for me 24/7, but I am not used to it at all. For the past three years I have held two jobs and worked on average between 50 and 60 hours per week, this week I am scheduled for about 20. I have learned that I don't work well without a schedule, I have slept in, gone out to eat (a few times), babysat my friend's daughter, fit in a few workouts, and even laid out for a few hours today; I know it all sounds great, but the lack of a schedule and not having 8am-8pm fully booked, is leaving me feeling quite unaccomplished. I know that a break is well deserved and sleeping in until 9am, is not the end of the world, it is just different. My current work schedule is also not consistent, some days I start at 10am, some days it is 5pm, other times I work a few hours in the morning and then a few later in the afternoon. It is all new and throwing me way off. I alo feel like I have no excuse not to have the house cleaned, organized, and all the laundry put away (none of which is done, by the way).

My husband told me I was being too hard on myself, which is most likely true. My online job has truly been 24/7 the past three years. There was always a paper to grade, an email to send, or a phone call to be made-or more times than not multiple papers, emails, and phone calls. It will be nice to start projects that can be finished, and that i can control, but I am just not there yet. I plan to spend some time picking out some new books to read, new writing projects to start, and I am still researching some graduate school programs to determine whether or not I will go back to school, and for what. I have to remember that each day brings new opportunity and that a less packed, more sporadic schedule, might actually be good for me, and remind me to live in the moment. Although, it has made planning a huge headache, I know that will subside soon, or at least I hope.

I know that I will get back on a schedule that works or me, I am not sure what that schedule will look like, or if it will be consistent from day to day (my guess is no), but I do know it will include more walks with Ruger(our black lab), more time with family/friends, and more reading time...and I do not mean 11th grade essays...I mean actual books! It will be quite a change, but I will make it work, I always find a way! :)